I think I've summed up my feelings of how I feel/felt as an 18 year old .
Innocence is dead ....
ugly thoughts raping me in bed , I fall as an easy victim for the predator I'm disgusted with my head ....
my youth flashing right before me , but I'm a cripple instead ....
I kick the thought out of my head , I scream , I cry , I beg ....
but silence is the only feedback I get ....
the years are on the passing , while I'm still frozen in time , it is big a crime ....
my potentials are waiting eternally to be fled , the thoughts of madness are growing fatter as they are being fully fed ....
welcome to my disgusting life stranger guest , this is the one life I was forced to digest ....
a slow way to die , a perfect poison for a healthy brain
this is my life , this is my pain .
at the moment , reading this makes me feel sick to my stomach .
but tomorrow hopefully this will just be a wound from the past , an awefully sad memory .
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